One More Step

Romans 5:3 (NLT) We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance.





I've created this blog to chronicle our journey into the unknown with our 6 year old son, Alexander. Currently you could describe him as...interesting...different...a puzzle. It has been a long road just getting to where we are right now, which is not much further than where we started almost a year ago. I thought that by creating this blog, it might help us see how far we've come, and to keep our eye on the prize.



The scripture I have here today really just sums up the outlook that I want to maintain through this journey. As hard as it has been for me and Darryl as parents, it has been just as hard on our girls and more than likely harder on Alex than any of us. I love my son deeply, he is a gift that God has given us, and I firmly believe he has been called to be a spiritual warrior.



I know what Alex is going through is not just physical, mental, or emotional. It's spiritual as well. I can sit back and see the major changes that he's gown through just in the past 2 years....from being a very young boy in the back seat of the car belting out the chorus of "Cry out to Jesus" to becoming a young boy seemingly locked in his mind....



We are looking at the possibility of Autism. More exactly, Aspergers.



I truly believe that the next few years of Alex's life are going to be determined by our outlook on this. We are going to be as thankful, positive, and rejoiceful as we can. In the meantime, through the sacrifice of praise, we are going to trust in the Lord. He knows better than we do, and He prepares our way for us.

Today the appointment books were supposed to open for the developmental pediatrician that Alex will be seeing. I called them today and the books have not been released yet, and according to the receptionist, there are 20 other children that absolutely have to be seen and Alex is going to follow behind them. They are already scheduling out for September. I do not know why these doors are not open for us just yet, but there is a reason. We are just trusting in God, and knowing that He is our all, and He is our rock.

I tell you, going through a situation where you watch your child just pull inward is most certainly something that will beckon you to your knees. You can choose to fall in many ways....in the natural you can hit the ground, wrenching your clothes and wringing your hands, wailing out "woe is me!" and feeling total and utter dispair. OR

You can gently lower yourself, into submission of the Father, at the foot of the cross. Resting in the prescence of God, knowing that HE ALONE carries you, and put total childlike faith and trust into the fact that the Creator of the universe is bigger than this. Wholly surrendered....